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Why I don't want to quit my day job

Immersing yourself in another career can provide rich material for a literary one

By Jacob M. Appel
Published: March 24, 2011
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Readers want writers to take them places where they can’t normally go—e.g., into the judge’s chambers at the courthouse.
Every Tuesday evening, I leave the locked psychiatric ward where I treat patients for 50 hours each week to teach a three-hour fiction course for adults at Gotham Writers’ Workshop. I do not do this for the money. I also do not teach my class to improve my own writing.

I would like to pretend that I teach my course solely to give back to others, that my time at Gotham is the literary equivalent of volunteering at a soup kitchen or reading to the blind. The reality is that I teach to connect with a community of artists, precisely because literary endeavors are so far removed from my professional life at the hospital.

I certainly consider myself to be a serious writer: I have published more than 100 short stories in respected journals. But I am also a part-time writer. My students, who range from recent college graduates hoping to apply to MFA programs to accomplished lawyers and entrepreneurs seeking creative outlets, are also resolute about their imaginative work—but few, if any, intend to abandon their day jobs. So while my course offers instruction on plot, voice and point of view, I also have a larger agenda: persuading my all-too-wary students that their current careers and their literary pursuits are not mutually exclusive.

Many of our most celebrated authors earned their livings through extra-literary means. Wallace Stevens spent more than two decades as vice president of the Hartford Accident and Indemnity Co. while writing his poems. Louis Auchincloss published more than 30 books while a partner at the law firm of Hawkins, Delafield & Wood. My own field, medicine, has produced literary geniuses such as Anton Chekhov, Arthur Conan Doyle, William Carlos Williams and Walker Percy.

Unfortunately, I find many of my older students have been warned—by college writing professors, by professional colleagues—that pursuing two callings in a parallel manner is not possible in today’s intense literary world.

If any biographical model resonates with adult writing students, it is that of Sherwood Anderson, who famously disappeared from his office at the Anderson Manufacturing Co. in Elyria, Ohio, in 1912 and abruptly deserted his career selling roofing supplies for a full-time literary life. That all-or-none romantic archetype has been embraced by some of our greatest contemporary authors.

But the men and women whom I teach are not looking to leave their day jobs. Is there a literary role, they ask, for the “weekends-and-evenings” writer? For years, often since high school, they have been warned that literary success on such terms is not possible. My goal is to convince them that it is.

I MAKE A POINT of sharing with my students one particularly disturbing experience that I had as an 11th grader. Our high school had invested in cutting-edge computer software that was supposed to help college-bound adolescents choose careers. Like the literature-generating machine in Roald Dahl’s “The Great Automatic Grammatizator,” which churned out stories and novels when supplied with raw data regarding plot and genre, our school’s algorithm allegedly whipped a short survey into a lifelong trade.

I answered the questions honestly: I wanted a job that involved creativity, reading, working with people. Although I am now a doctor, at the time I sought nothing mathematical or scientific. My guidance counselor, Dr. M., fed my data into the program and “Career Giver X” supplied its hallowed wisdom: I should become a clergyman. The questionnaire had not asked after my religion, and my guidance counselor, a benevolent if never particularly insightful woman, appeared unfazed when I reminded her that I did not believe in God or organized religion.

“OK, then. What would you like to do with your life?” she asked.

“I want to be a short-story writer,” I declared confidently.

Dr. M. smiled at me across her oversized desk—a sympathetic, indulgent smile that bordered on pity. “Do you really think that’s realistic?” she asked.

I didn’t write another word of fiction for nearly a decade.

I do not blame Dr. M. for attempting to steer me away from a literary career. Even when I returned to writing, while taking pre-med classes as a resumed-education student, I found that my teachers viewed fiction and health care as an either-or choice. One established writer at Columbia University, with whom I took an advanced workshop, sat me down in his office and said, point-blank, “Honestly, I think your work has promise. You’re talented. But writing isn’t only about raw talent. You still have to make a decision. Are you going to be a writer or a physician?” At another college, a well-meaning faculty member was more direct. “Why in the world would you want to be a writer when you could be a doctor?” he asked. “I have relatives who went to medical school. I look at their lives and I’m envious.”

Nor were my professors in medical school any more accepting of my dual career goals. One prominent internist discouraged my extracurricular writing by reminding me: “Being a physician is a full-time job. I know people say you can be a physician and a playwright, or a physician and a painter, or whatever. I call that being a dilettante.”

Nearly all of my students at Gotham have endured similar admonitions during their careers. They have been taught that being a writer means throwing caution to the wind and embracing monastic poverty. One can only wonder how many brilliant talents have given up writing entirely, as a result of this counsel, before enlightening the world with their literary gems.

THE WORLD MIGHT be otherwise. We could teach aspiring writers, from an early age, to integrate creative work in their non-literary careers. Imagine, for example, if Dr. M.’s Career Generator X had produced two results: both a trade from which to earn one’s livelihood and also a calling to generate intellectual fulfillment. Or if Dr. M. had said to me: “I think being a writer is a wonderful ambition. Are there occupations which might dovetail with creative writing to make the literary life easier?”

I know of one middle-school writing teacher who asks her students to choose a famous author who enjoyed a second career and to write an essay explaining how that second career influenced his or her literary work. She drowns every fall in papers about Mark Twain’s days as a riverboat pilot, peppered with an occasional narrative describing Herman Melville’s whaling adventures.

But the next part of her exercise makes this assignment worthwhile. She assigns the students a second paper, in which they describe the second career they would pursue if they wished to become a writer. At an early age, this teacher plants the idea that a second career as an author is not the exclusive preserve of 19th-century icons.

Similarly, I believe it is incumbent upon college writing professors to work with their most talented students on long-term literary-career planning. It is not enough to say: “Go get an MFA. Then suffer.” Rather, the university educator has an ethical obligation to talk with interested students about how one can balance literary ambitions with economic, social and familial expectations.

“Go get an MFA” is not reasonable advice to offer a gifted Pakistani immigrant whose parents have planned for him to attend medical school since birth—especially if that young man himself wishes to become a pediatrician. Far better counsel would be to steer him toward the writings of other pediatrician-authors, such as Chris Adrian and Perri Klass, and even to encourage him to meet with physician-writers for mentorship. I cannot promise that all physician-writers are interested in meeting with would-be novelist-MDs, but I suspect many are. Personally, I receive about a dozen such requests each year, and I make a point of speaking to or meeting with all of them.

In my own adult-education class, I make every effort to bridge the gulf between creative writing and the outside professional lives of my students. On day one, I have each student introduce himself—and describe what he does when he is not writing. Then I try to point out the advantages that each particular occupation affords a writer.

For example, if a student has a job where she visits strangers inside their homes, such as offering music lessons, I note that such visits afford an opportunity to “spy” or play fly on the wall—much like a 19th-century governess. I then steer her toward published fiction that relies on visits by tradespeople, most frequently Tim Gautreaux’s “The Piano Tuner.” Students who work in delivery receive Jason Brown’s “Driving the Heart,” a trenchant tale of delivering donor organs to hospitals based upon the author’s own employment experience.

Ironically, the only time I have struggled at this is the one occasion on which a somewhat mulish woman described herself as a full-time writer. “These days, all I do is write,” she declared proudly. “The past is prologue.” It is telling that she was the only student for whom I could not manage to explain how her outside experiences might offer golden opportunities for improving her creative work. Without such outside experiences, after all, the creative well must eventually run dry.

EVERY WRITING instructor, at some point, is asked: “Should I write what I know or what I don’t know?” I prefer to tell my students, “Write what you know and what nobody else knows.” For many of them, that means the knowledge and wisdom acquired in practicing podiatry or commercial litigation, or running a cheese shop.

I emphasize the importance of expert vocabulary as a method for gaining the reader’s confidence. Every profession and trade has a specialized language, a stew of unusual words and phrases that separates those in the know from outsiders. Harnessing that vocabulary, and using it with care, can transform an intriguing voice into a convincing and compelling one. Readers, who yearn to learn something new, admire writers who can take them places on the page where they cannot go in their own corporeal lives—whether that means into the judge’s chambers at the courthouse or into the mind of a psychopath.

A writer’s non-writing professional life often provides an excellent source of material that she knows well and others do not know at all. That is not to say, of course, that one must never build a wall between one’s literary and non-literary interests. As one of my students, a mortician, told me: “I write to forget about dead bodies.” I believe, however, that there is value in reminding adult students that their everyday working lives may prove highly exotic to others.

It is also essential to emphasize that, much as a writer can draw upon her day job for inspiration, creative writing can also enhance a writer’s work in her other primary discipline. I am a better physician because I write short stories. I can hear a patient describe his symptoms, often haphazardly, and then impose a linear framework onto his disjointed collection of assorted ills. The narrative-medicine movement, pioneered by Rachel Naomi Remen and Rita Charon two decades ago, has increasingly converted medical professionals to the unorthodox belief that understanding storytelling is a crucial component of effective clinical care.

I would like to emphasize that the benefits of writing are not confined to a handful of learned professions like medicine and law. I once gave a reading where the other reader worked days as an auditor for the IRS. Over our post-performance drink, I remarked that her job and her writing used different parts of the brain. To my surprise, my companion explained that writing her novel had made her into a more effective tax agent. “I spend more time thinking about people and why they say what they say,” she told me. “I know this may sound strange, but now it’s easier for me to tell when people are lying to me.”

THE ANCIENT
Israelites demanded that their rabbinic sages earn their livings through non-sacred work. Rabbi Joshua was a blacksmith. Rabbi Yochanan cobbled shoes. These men held day jobs because they did not wish to sully their scholarship by receiving compensation for it. At the same time, I cannot help believing that these men became great scholars, at least in part, because they knew the toil and sweat of an honest day’s labor. How can one preach to the world if one is not of the world?

Likewise, how can one describe the world if one does not live in it? An Ivy League teaching gig may give a writer more time to write. But one day in the insane asylum offers far more to write about, as far as I am concerned, than 10,000 years cloistered on an elm-shaded New England campus. I have taught on an Ivy League campus—and I confess, I enjoyed the experience. But the literary public can tolerate only so many tales of professors sinking under the weight of their own angst. Occasionally, they would like to hear about the triumphs of a blacksmith or a cobbler.

I have taught introductory fiction to more than 500 students in my nearly 15-year career as a writing instructor. These include two Protestant ministers, two rabbis, one nun, one Polish priest, a retired judge, a pensioned naval officer, an airplane pilot, a professional stripper, a paroled burglar, several self-proclaimed drug dealers, two dozen physicians, a veterinarian, a concert flautist, more than 50 lawyers, a carpenter, a great-grandmother, a handful of nurses, and many journalists, Web designers, financial analysts, stockbrokers, high school teachers, homemakers and unemployed college graduates.

Many of them displayed considerable talent and serious commitment to writing. They did not view their hours crafting stories as manifestations of a hobby. Often, in fact, their greatest challenge as aspiring authors has not been generating ideas or polishing prose, but dealing with the co-workers and relatives and even previous writing teachers who have treated their creative work as the product of mere hobby enthusiasts. Yet these men and women, who write part time, are no more writing for fun than Rabbi Joshua studied the Talmud for fun.

Many Tuesday nights, after leading my writing workshop, I return to the hospital around 10:30 to finish up my paperwork or to meet with patients. Sometimes, if inspired by the creative maelstrom of my class, I sit at the nurses station and generate stories of my own. I wonder if the doctors and nurses at the other workstations suspect what I am doing. And I wonder if they are doing the same—writing stories about their long days treating the mentally ill, trying to create coherence out of madness.

This is the future of creative writing, I believe: Not a handful of trained professionals churning out prose like Dahl’s Great Automatic Grammatizator, but millions of ordinary people, scribbling their secrets behind pharmacy counters and in firehouses and at interstate truck stops, trying to capture the magic of a diverse and ever-changing world.

Jacob M. Appel teaches at Gotham Writers’ Workshop in New York City and practices medicine at Mount Sinai Hospital. His more than 150 short stories have been published in The Missouri Review, Virginia Quarterly Review and elsewhere.
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MS JACQUELINE LEWIS-LYONS from OHIO said:
Thank you for this! After my parents decided that I could not 'waste' my college years on writing, I became a psychologist. While I love the work that I do, I still write and and trying to write what I know. This article is very encouraging, just what I needed today.
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BETTY ANGLETON-HALSEY from ARIZONA said:
Thank you!
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BOBBY CALISE from NEW YORK said:
Thanks for this article, Jacob. I admit that most of my days are spent dreaming of getting out of my dead-end office job and launching a full-time writing career. Still, some of my best writing ideas have been inspired by the interactions and situations inside my office. So while I may not like what I'm doing from 9 to 5 (or 6), for the time being it's providing me with some fodder for my writing.
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DIANE CARLISLE from FLORIDA said:
Thank you! I am a software developer and I always get weird looks when I talk about my fiction writing. I recently joined a local writer's group and shared some of my short stories for critique. I was shocked when asked, "Have you ever submitted?"

The answer of course is "No" but I do hope to have a secondary career one day. I just can't imagine giving up my pay to concentrate on what I love to do, especially when it may not pay the bills.
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KEITH SPEER from MISSOURI said:
The timing of this article is perfect for my personal life. I thought I was the only one who struggled with this. My primary career is within the IT field. Thank you for writing this wonderfully encouraging piece. It places me at ease and challenges the conventional thought on having to pick writing or "something else".
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